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Dear Boston,

I just spent the last four days in Vermont performing a critical task that I will not be writing about right now. Perhaps someday I will find a way to write about it, but not now. It’s too raw. What I want to write about is you. Boston is where I flew in and outContinue reading “Dear Boston,”

True Colors

November 3, 2020 Four years ago I didn’t have a pussy hat. It wasn’t a thing I would have imagined so many women wearing. I know lots of people who thought my little group of friends in college were disgusting girls for wearing tampon costumes on Halloween. We just thought it was hilarious and provocative.Continue reading “True Colors”

DO THE RIGHT THING

I am 50 years old. I am a native daughter of Denver. I live with my family in a small house that is pretty much smack in the middle of the city. Our house rests on the south edge of Park Hill right off of Colfax Avenue. I have a story. Yesterday I was runningContinue reading “DO THE RIGHT THING”

Resting Smirk Face

“The woods are lovely, dark , and deep but I have promises to keep and miles to go before I sleep. . .” Robert Frost Turning off emotions that don’t serve me is something I have thought about a lot during my adulthood. I realize that I may have always been quite good at shuttingContinue reading “Resting Smirk Face”

The Name is Pain

I’ve just spent my whole morning hanging out around the convenience stores near my neighborhood high school. That’s because my friend asked me to buy out medication so there wouldn’t be any for his kid to steal. My friend is what I would call a professional dad. He has been advocating for his kids forContinue reading “The Name is Pain”

Ketamine

I want to share what I’ve learned about ketamine because over the last few months ketamine treatments have revived my 17 year old from a deep depression that has been disabling him since he was 14. Now Cole is like a doll that has come to life. My gentle, intelligent, thoughtful, compassionate, kind, witty, wiseContinue reading “Ketamine”

Sweat, Tears, and a Prayer for Humanity

When I was in my thirties and my children were young I became very ill. I looked fine to most people, but I didn’t feel fine at all. I battled insomnia for about seven years. I was exhausted and severely fatigued. I ran on adrenaline most of the time. At the height of my illnessContinue reading “Sweat, Tears, and a Prayer for Humanity”

Community is the Solution

I don’t actually recall if anyone has said it to my face, but I know that some people think that it’s my own fault that I have so many problems. It’s impossible not to see that I have a lot of problems if you’re paying attention. I have three teenagers. And who doesn’t have aContinue reading “Community is the Solution”

Either/Or

Two days ago it was Christmas. I have struggled with my feelings on Christmas since I was a teenager. I think I finally understand why. Some years it just feels plain lonely. I think it started because of a question I have been asked over and over since I was a kid. The question wasContinue reading “Either/Or”

Mourning School Photos

I grew up in a home where my school photos from kindergarten through high school graduation were proudly displayed in a collage for all to see. It’s one of things I loved about my childhood home. My kids loved looking at those photos of me and my brother. My mom was dedicated to such things.Continue reading “Mourning School Photos”