Blessed are you, Adonai our God, Sovereign of all worlds, who girds me with courage. Blessed are you, Adonai our God, sovereign of all worlds, who guide my steps. These blessings speak to me, as I have experienced these things, and have chosen to walk down a path. I am a quiet person. I amContinue reading “What It All Meant to a 13 year old named Cole Tucker”
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I Hate
Dear Reader, Please try to remember that what you’re reading is about me, not you (unless you see your name here). I’m filled with rage and I really have got to find a different container for it because my body can’t handle it any longer. Don’t read it if you don’t want to know what’sContinue reading “I Hate”
My Sleep Disorder + PTSD + Righteous Rage = Depression/Fatigue/Fibromyalgia
Despite the reappearance of my lifelong sleep disorder over the last year and the shock to my heart last April (https://feldmanmortuary.com/tribute/details/4452/Cole-Tucker/obituary.html), I still have never had much trouble getting myself out of bed in the morning. I love life and I always have. I truly have not experienced much depression in the traditional sense untilContinue reading “My Sleep Disorder + PTSD + Righteous Rage = Depression/Fatigue/Fibromyalgia”
Cole. Poet.
Written by Cole T. Autumn looks like mud, tastes like clean air, smells like dead plants, sounds like snapping branches, feels like paper, makes me feel uncomfortable. Humor looks like insanity, tastes like acceptance, smells like B.O., sounds like laughter, feels like a lack of breath, makes me feel indomitable. Fear looks like the devil,Continue reading “Cole. Poet.”
Tik Tok. It was fun, except for the whole “Cyberbullying/Deaf Mafia” part
5s8m5m5sd3s (furious) AND/OR 2s8m5m5sd3s (curious) Since Cole’s death in April I have been doing a few things differently. One of those things is trying to have a lot more fun. Fun is something that’s been missing from my life for quite a long time now and that’s mostly because I became consumed by responsibilities. UnspeakableContinue reading “Tik Tok. It was fun, except for the whole “Cyberbullying/Deaf Mafia” part”
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Cole. A Classic Gifted Student.
This is a writing in progress subject to additions, edits, and updates. I welcome comments. School refusal is a term used to describe the signs of anxiety a school-aged child has and their refusal to attend school. Let’s cut to the chase. Children who refuse to go to school are unable to attend. They areContinue reading “Cole. A Classic Gifted Student.”
Cole. Rest in Peaceful Power.
FAKE IT UNTIL YOU MAKE IT. GRIN AND BEAR IT. SUCK IT UP. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? These phrases have come up time and again over the last many years in conversations with my teenagers. The truth is that these phrases do not commonly come into my own mind. I don’t recall my parentsContinue reading “Cole. Rest in Peaceful Power.”
My Deaf Gain Story💯
FEARS ARE EDUCATED INTO US, AND CAN, IF WE WISH, BE EDUCATED OUT.” KARL A. MENNINGER Evidently some words are for sale. Or at least a few I recently learned. “Deaf” “Deaf Education” “ASL” and “dDeaf”. WTAF?!✌🏼 Last night I watched the movie CODA for the third time. The familial conflicts and the hurt andContinue reading “My Deaf Gain Story💯”
Jason Rudofsky, My Most Popular Husband🙌🏽
Today Rudy turns 52 and this is his year in review. It’s a birthday gift for my fool because I am proud of him. Last year around this time Rudy stepped up and supported our mixed family and friends to organize Solid Ground Denver, which started out of sheer necessity to support a small groupContinue reading “Jason Rudofsky, My Most Popular Husband🙌🏽”
DISSENT 