When I was a little girl I didn’t imagine myself being a mother. I didn’t care to play with dolls. I didn’t want to babysit. And I didn’t have little cousins or younger siblings. That just wasn’t my experience. As I got older, I didn’t give much consideration to having kids. I just knew itContinue reading “Just a Mother”
Author Archives: stuckinmybra
Frequent Flyer Club
Dear Beatrice, I’ve been thinking about you for a long time now, but these last few years I’ve thought about you more often. I really hope my indifference to you and your child didn’t cause you too much heartache. And if it did I hope you were quick to find forgiveness. I know what it’sContinue reading “Frequent Flyer Club”
Serenity Now
Most days now when I wake up I have a panicky feeling in my chest and racing thoughts in my mind. I don’t always write, but I know that I need to express all of these overwhelming thoughts and feelings. I never know what is going to come out, but it is images of myContinue reading “Serenity Now”
Hope
Hope has been on my mind a lot over the last week as I think about what it must feel like to be my 16 year old, Mackenzie. Despite everything that has happened to her over the last few years at school, she has practiced forgiveness and patience and has continued to hold out hopeContinue reading “Hope”
MeToo
September 27, 2018 My heart is pounding as I write about this thing that happened more than thirty years ago. It has caused me so much stress, so much shame, embarrassment, sadness, and anger. I have shared this story with few people and I only told my own mother about it when women started sharingContinue reading “MeToo”
Third time’s a charm
Respect for our choices about how we want to live and acceptance for who we are or who we want to become are things I think about a lot these days. When I reflect back on some of the life choices I’ve made I realize that it is a recurring theme in my life. IContinue reading “Third time’s a charm”
Forgiveness
On September 27, 2018, the day that Christine Blasey Ford testified on national television about her sexual assault, I was called to write about my own experience. The emotions I had bottled up came pouring out of me as I related to what she was doing so publicly and with such courage. My heart wasContinue reading “Forgiveness”
Asephah
Dear Asephah, Finding the words to start this letter has been difficult for me, much like my difficulty sharing myself with you while living through what has been a heavy and painful stretch of time. Words are one of the many things that have become complicated in my world. One reason is that my heartContinue reading “Asephah”
