Dolly Momma b. 1970🎶

January 10, 2022 Dear Reader, Yesterday a new label hit me smack in the face so I’m going to own it. Here it is. Yesterday I became officially employed as a Homemaker. That’s right. For the first time ever I am being paid by the hour to do what I’ve been doing for free sinceContinue reading “Dolly Momma b. 1970🎶”

What It All Meant to a 13 year old named Cole Tucker

OZshalom is the name that Cole chose for his Hebrew name when he became a bar mitzvah. He gave it a tremendous amount of deep thinking, as was his way with everything. OzShalom means peaceful warrior in Hebrew. Blessed are you, Adonai our God, Sovereign of all worlds, who girds me with courage. Blessed areContinue reading “What It All Meant to a 13 year old named Cole Tucker”

My Sleep Disorder + PTSD + Righteous Rage = Depression/Fatigue/Fibromyalgia

Despite the reappearance of my lifelong sleep disorder over the last year and the shock to my heart last April (https://feldmanmortuary.com/tribute/details/4452/Cole-Tucker/obituary.html), I still have never had much trouble getting myself out of bed in the morning. I love life and I always have. I truly have not experienced much depression in the traditional sense untilContinue reading “My Sleep Disorder + PTSD + Righteous Rage = Depression/Fatigue/Fibromyalgia”

Feelings + Seasons of Life❄️

Written by Cole T. Autumn looks like mud, tastes like clean air, smells like dead plants, sounds like snapping branches, feels like paper, makes me feel uncomfortable. Humor looks like insanity, tastes like acceptance, smells like B.O., sounds like laughter, feels like a lack of breath, makes me feel indomitable. Fear looks like the devil,Continue reading “Feelings + Seasons of Life❄️”

Tik Tok. It was fun, except for the whole “Cyberbullying/Deaf Mafia” part

5s8m5m5sd3s (furious) AND/OR 2s8m5m5sd3s (curious) Since Cole’s death in April I have been doing a few things differently. One of those things is trying to have a lot more fun. Fun is something that’s been missing from my life for quite a long time now and that’s mostly because I became consumed by responsibilities. UnspeakableContinue reading “Tik Tok. It was fun, except for the whole “Cyberbullying/Deaf Mafia” part”

Cole. A Classic Gifted Student.

This is a writing in progress subject to additions, edits, and updates. I welcome comments. School refusal is a term used to describe the signs of anxiety a school-aged child has and their refusal to attend school. Let’s cut to the chase. Children who refuse to go to school are unable to attend. They areContinue reading “Cole. A Classic Gifted Student.”