I want to share what I’ve learned about ketamine because over the last few months ketamine treatments have revived my 17 year old from a deep depression that has been disabling him since he was 14. Now Cole is like a doll that has come to life. My gentle, intelligent, thoughtful, compassionate, kind, witty, wiseContinue reading “Ketamine”
Tag Archives: Parenting
College Visits
I’m on a plane ride home. I was visiting a college with Max, one my 17 year old twins. Honestly, the whole college visit thing is a little bit foreign to me. I really can’t even remember doing it myself at the same age. Unless I count the time I drove up to Boulder fromContinue reading “College Visits”
The Spice of Life
I’ve been thinking a lot about why we all don’t stand together. Even when we are in the same community of people. Even when we share the same religion. Even when we work together with a common mission. Even when we are family. I think it must be fear. I am in a few groupsContinue reading “The Spice of Life”
A Job Well Done
I have no doubt that my mom would be surprised to know that I think about her a lot. Certainly I think about her every day. Today is my mom’s birthday so I’m thinking about her a lot today. I want her to know how grateful I am for her. I don’t think she knowsContinue reading “A Job Well Done”
The Courage of Conviction
I am feeling grateful right now. So much so that it is overwhelming me. I’m starting to understand that this is a good time for me to write. Thankfully, I have also been ordered by my therapist to find at least thirty to forty-five minutes every day for self care. Otherwise, I might be drivingContinue reading “The Courage of Conviction”
Just a Mother
When I was a little girl I didn’t imagine myself being a mother. I didn’t care to play with dolls. I didn’t want to babysit. And I didn’t have little cousins or younger siblings. That just wasn’t my experience. As I got older, I didn’t give much consideration to having kids. I just knew itContinue reading “Just a Mother”
Frequent Flyer Club
Dear Beatrice, I’ve been thinking about you for a long time now, but these last few years I’ve thought about you more often. I really hope my indifference to you and your child didn’t cause you too much heartache. And if it did I hope you were quick to find forgiveness. I know what it’sContinue reading “Frequent Flyer Club”
Serenity Now
Most days now when I wake up I have a panicky feeling in my chest and racing thoughts in my mind. I don’t always write, but I know that I need to express all of these overwhelming thoughts and feelings. I never know what is going to come out, but it is images of myContinue reading “Serenity Now”
Hope
Hope has been on my mind a lot over the last week as I think about what it must feel like to be my 16 year old, Mackenzie. Despite everything that has happened to her over the last few years at school, she has practiced forgiveness and patience and has continued to hold out hopeContinue reading “Hope”
Asephah
Dear Asephah, Finding the words to start this letter has been difficult for me, much like my difficulty sharing myself with you while living through what has been a heavy and painful stretch of time. Words are one of the many things that have become complicated in my world. One reason is that my heartContinue reading “Asephah”
