January 10, 2022 Dear Reader, Yesterday a new label hit me smack in the face so I'm going to own it. Here it is. Yesterday I officially became employed as a Homemaker. That's right. For the first time ever I am being paid by the hour to do what I've been doing for free sinceContinue reading "51. Homemaker Thoughts"
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What it all meant to my son, Cole Tucker, when he was 13. OZshalom is the name that Cole chose for his Hebrew name when he became a bar mitzvah. He gave it a tremendous amount of deep thinking, as was his way with everything. OzShalom means peaceful warrior in Hebrew. This is a photoContinue reading "50."
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Dear Reader, Please try to remember that what you’re reading is about me, not about you (unless you see your name here). I’m all filled up with anger and I really have got to find a different container for it because my body is unable to handle it any longer. Don’t read this if youContinue reading "49. 🖤"
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Despite the reappearance of my lifelong sleep disorder over the last year and the shock to my heart last April when my son suddenly died, I still have never had too much trouble getting myself out of bed in the morning. I love life and I always have. I truly have not experienced much depressionContinue reading "48."
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Photo of Cole Jackson Tucker at home. Written by Cole T. Autumn looks like mud, tastes like clean air, smells like dead plants, sounds like snapping branches, feels like paper, makes me feel uncomfortable. Humor looks like insanity, tastes like acceptance, smells like B.O., sounds like laughter, feels like a lack of breath, makes meContinue reading "47."
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5s8m5m5sd3s (furious) 👿 2s8m5m5sd3s (curious)🤨 Since my son’s death in April, I have been doing a few things differently. One of those things is trying to have a lot more fun. Fun is something that's been missing from my life for quite a long time now and that's mostly because I became consumed by responsibilities.Continue reading "46."
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My son, Cole Tucker, was a classic gifted and talented student. Same as me. This is a happy snapshot I took of my son, Cole,in the midst of grappling with a serious emotional disability caused by school trauma. School refusal is a term used to describe the signs of anxiety a school-aged child has andContinue reading "45."
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FAKE IT UNTIL YOU MAKE IT. GRIN AND BEAR IT. SUCK IT UP. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? STOP BEING SO LAZY. DO IT YOURSELF. These phrases have come up time and again over the last many years in conversations with my teenagers. The truth is that these phrases do not commonly come into myContinue reading "44. Cole."
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FEARS ARE EDUCATED INTO US, AND CAN, IF WE WISH, BE EDUCATED OUT.” KARL A. MENNINGER Cole Jackson Tucker happy, hearing, and proud at Colorado’s annual Deaf and Hard of Hearing Field Day Event. Evidently some words are for sale. Or at least a few I recently learned. “Deaf” “Deaf Education” “ASL” and “dDeaf” areContinue reading "43. 🤟🏽"
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